Feeling blue

It is a blue blue day. 

And I do mean that the sky is blue and I am going to get out and enjoy the warmer weather today. 

But I must share with you : I am feeling oh so blue today too.

Today, we should have….we would have … been driving off to be with our Vancouver children and six grandsons for a month. 

Last year we left after only one week as the pandemic was just coming into focus and everything was closing and getting quite scary. 

They said back then, “Oh, it should be cleared up by May.” Now we have been in this for one year and not much sign of Covid 19 leaving anytime soon. 

And I do have hope. Soon I will be getting my vaccine and the more of the world that is vaccinated the safer it will be to come out of hiding. 

But today, I am allowing the tears to fall for a bit. My heart is pulling towards my ‘hearts’ in “Kits’ and I will be thinking of them so much. I miss them with a fierce love. I miss the flowers, the ocean,the birthday celebrations, walks to Aphrodite’s for cherry pie, “Wizard” with D and J, tea evenings with J and S, day trips with the little ones with the inevitable trip to White Spot, and of course the hugs.

I will be missing cuddles with our six boys as we read to them before bed,having them visit our ‘little house’ with the red,cat knocker, silliness, dancing around the living room ...or ‘bouncing’ around the living room depending on which family ..ha ha.

I will be missing craft times and bath times ,chat times with our children, and even time alone in that beautiful city with my guy. 

The sky is blue and me too.